UGH!

Have you ever had one of those days where you just need to stop, evaluate yourself, and then quite possibly just get back in bed and try again? Thats my day today! I'm just so annoyed!

I haven't been to the gym in a couple weeks, and I really think that ultimately that's what's bothering me. The first couple days that I didn't go I was running around like crazy to get things ready for Cara and Anna's visit, and then the rest of the time they were here. Last week I had a ton of stuff to do on base and my friend Monique came home from a long visit to the mainland, so we hung out alot. Today I was so excited to go, but Doc emailed me last night and said he was going to call our home phone today, so I waited for that. He didn't call, and needless to say I waited for too long and kind of missed my golden opportunity to hit the gym. (childcare purposes) When you incorporate strength training into your workout and you don't SEE massive results you really have to be persistent, and I feel so dissappointed in myself that I haven't been able to go. Running the household by yourself is hard, but I've always managed so well, and I just feel like this is my first defeat. I understand that no one can be perfect and have the perfect schedule and be able to do everything, but I really hate defeat. This motivates me to hit the gym hard tomorrow though...given that I don't wait by the phone all day. I just think that if Doc were here he would be so dissappointed in me :(

Jordan has went into an AWESOME new phase (totally sarcastic) of throwing fits. Now when I tell her "no" she growls and screams. Sometimes she even cries for a second or two. I knew this was coming, but I was hoping it could wait untill Doc got home! LOL She only does it about once every couple days, but I hate it! I want her to remain my sweet little girl that only wants to please her Mommy! For the most part she still is that girl, but GOODNESS when she is mad it is a whole 'nother story!

I've been getting kind of annoyed by alot of other random things, too. Its mainly nothing, just a lot of stupid things, like the way people say things, and etc. I think I just need a break from Jordan and my friends and everyone for just a little bit. So, I've prescribed myself a much-needed day of tranquility: More like 3 hours, but still! I made an appointment for Jordan on Thursday to go to the Hourly Childcare Center on base and use some of my "deployed spouses" coupons. I'm going to run a couple quick errands, and then go to the beach. By myself. And just lay there, and not think about one single thing for 3 long hours. I hope it does the trick! I'm sure it will! It just takes ALOT for me to be in a bad mood, and they never last long, I just hate it because its so abnormal for me! I need to nip it in the butt, NOW!

AND, I've also noticed that this blog is really helping me out more than I realized! As I read back through it, it looks like I have one of these "bad days" every month....so I'm not as stressed out about today because I see that its perfectly normal! That's something to be positive about, right? At least if I'm going to be in a bad mood I can be justified in it! LOL I will talk to you all later! :)