Well, I've been dreaming about these next couple weeks for months and months now. I dreamed about how happy I would be, and how perfect I would feel. I didn't dream of the anxiety that would make me toss and turn for hours each night, or the nasuea that comes with thinking about whether or not he's even going to enjoy the things I have planned for him when he comes home. It's been over 200 days since I've seen this man I love. He's not in some air-conditioned hotel room, preparing for a "super stressful" business lunch followed by an "exhausting" 18 holes and martini's. Not at all. When my husband goes on a business trip it's not good news. It's 7 months of hell followed by a welcome home to a wife and child that he barely even recognizes. He's been in the most stressful of conditions for over half a year, and the sole responsibility of making his homecoming perfect falls on one person. Me. WOW.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade this homecoming for absolutely anything in the world, and I am EXCITED AS HECK to see Doc!! Nothing could ever change that. I guess I just assumed that this would be the LEAST stressful of times, with my stressful days of maintaining a household alone almost over. Yet somehow these days seem MORE stressful. I'm starting to become more aware of the fact that I have changed alot in 7 seven months, and I know Doc has, too. I just have all these fears....what if he doesn't like some of the surprises I have for him? What if Jordan freaks out and gets scared to be around him? How will that make him feel, and how will I comfort him if that happens? What if he doesn't like the church I have chosen for us? What if he's dissappointed in some of my wedding choices? (Actually I really don't care about that one...it was his choice to let me do everything and he has never once responded to my questions asking for his input, so PINK AND YELLOW it is buddy! LOL) What if my outfit isn't very cute to him? (I don't know how that could happen either, I got the most fabulous little black dress and some smashing red peep-toed stillhetto heels!) but still, what if all of a sudden that's not what he likes anymore? Come to think of it he's really not fond of stillhetto's, because he says they look dangerous, like a womanly weapon. No wait, that's just what he says about pointed toed shoes. WOW A D D, My mind is running about 100 MPH these days! ANYWAY, it can be really overwhelming at times. I do think that in the end he will be happy, because I am doing absolutely everything I can to get us all ready for him!!! Doc is a very laid back man. A nice lasagna and a glass of milk (that has been put in the freezer for about 3 minutes before drinking it) will pretty much get you anything you want with him :)
This homecoming is more than just a "return from 7-month deployment" for us. After 6 months of dating, Doc and I lived together for 2 and 1/2 years. Yet for the last year and half we have lived under the same roof for 2 months. And 1 month and 1/2 of that was in a hotel. He did 4 months of Great Lakes transitioning, seeing each other about twice a month, followed by 4 months in BUD/S at Coronado by himself. He left there to come to Hawaii and get everything ready for us, and a month later we finally got here. 7 weeks later he left for Iraq. This homecoming is the start of getting a somewhat normal (as normal as a military wive's life can be anyway) routine back. Even though he deploys again in a year, our cup is DEFINITELY half full! We will have a FULL YEAR to enjoy each other! (minus a couple months of training, but still, WAY better than before!!!!) I feel like it is my job to get this new routine set-up and running for us, and I can't help but wonder if I will do a good job or not. The whole military life is still relatively new to me. Seperations I am a professional at, but having him here in a military setting is completely new. AND EXCITING, but stressful none the less. I'm sure to anyone who has never been through this I have to sound like a complete rambling lunatic. Thanks for listening anyway! :)
This will definitely be our last blog until Doc gets home! I will not be able to tell anyone even when I do get the date for his arrival, so just know that I will let you know very soon after he arrives! I will post pictures on my different pages, and I'll make sure everyone is updated in a timely fashion!! Now back to my obsessive cleaning, nit-picking, re-arranging, and tossing and turning! AHHH this will all be over soon! :) Please keep my dangling sanity in your prayers LOL :) But really, keep us in your prayers, as we will you as well! Have a great week, and we'll talk to you soon! Love to you all! :)
Monday, August 18, 2008
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
So close to Homecoming!!!
OH MY GOODNESS!!!! Daddy is coming home THIS MONTH!!!!! We no longer have to count months, we can count weeks....and those are so few, we can count days!!!! We have our window of time for him to come home, and we'll find out more about the exact date when we get closer to time :) Words cannot express our excitement!!! We are just about to jump out of our skin waiting for Daddy!!! We're keeping very busy though! We have been painting banners, welcoming new comers to the island, and getting the house in perfect condition for Daddy to come home!! It's about dang time!
My parents are also planning their trip out to the island! They want to be here for Doc's homecoming, and they are coming 3 weeks from today :) They are staying clear through to the time of the wedding to help me with Jordan and be there with me for wedding appointments and etc. We are very excited to have them, and blessed that they are in a position to be able to come and visit for extended lengths of time like they do!
Speaking of wedding planning, everything is really starting to come together wonderfully! I am working hard to keep us on budget, and ready for another wedding dress fitting! I wanted to let everyone know that though gifts are COMPLETELY unnecessary, I did set-up a bridal registry at Wal-Mart. I have had a lot of people asking for a registry, and I will send out an email about it as well :) I can't believe how close we are to having all of our friends and family here!! We absolutely can't wait! Our wedding is only 60 days away, and we are SOOOO ready!
Jordan is growing like a dandelion! She's now saying pretty much everything. It's incredible. There isn't a thing I can throw at her that she can't repeat right back to me. Her favorite is "hippopotomus". I said it to her thinking that she wouldn't be able to repeat it. Wrong. It came right out. She's putting together sentences, and songs! She's almost singing her ABC's and she does a great version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star :) She has been telling me that she has to go "pee pee potty" or "poopy potty" for quite some time now. I decided that though it's fairly early, I would go ahead and start potty training. I bought her a fantastic talking potty, and told her we were going to Potty like rockstars :) At this time, she loves to be in the bathroom with mommy, and will hug and kiss her potty, but is scared to death to sit on it! LOL We are working through it, and she's getting closer everyday, so that's good! Her favorite thing to do right now is read. We read about 50 books a day, if not more. We go over and over and over all of her favorites, plus our bible story every night. She LOVES to pray, which is the sweetest thing I could ever hope to see. We will pray before a meal, and sometimes she will stop me in the middle of the meal and demand that we pray again! I will pray with her as many times as she wants, and I hope her love for talking to the Lord stays with her!
We have had some great friends move to the base this week! One of Doc's first friends when he arrived here was a guy named Rob. We offered to let him store some stuff in our garage while he was deployed and he mentioned to me that he was married and that his wife would be moving out right before the guys came back. I gave him my phone number and email address and asked him to give it to her so that we could keep in touch throughout deployment, and I had an email from her just a couple days later! We have been talking for the last 6 months, and have become great friends! She just moved out here on the 31st, and we let her stay with us until she moved into her base housing. She has been SUCH a joy to have around! She's Italian, and her mother came with her from Rhode Island to help her settle! They have the cutest accents, are so fiesty, and so hilarious to be around! We've been helping them get settled and get everything done for their move. After moving here and seeing how hard it can be, I will absolutely jump on the chance to help someone else with their move, and in the process I am making some REALLY great friends! I am so thankful that God has led these people here to the island, and I am so blessed to have them be a part of our lives here! The best part of all (well, maybe not the BEST, but right up there!) is that to thank me they cooked me a homeade made-from-scratch Italian meal!!! OH MY GOSH!!! DELICIOUS!!! Thank God for those left-overs!!
Well, that's about all for us!! We will try to update you again before Doc comes home, but if we don't get a chance to, we'll update as quickly after homecoming as we can!!! Love you all :)
My parents are also planning their trip out to the island! They want to be here for Doc's homecoming, and they are coming 3 weeks from today :) They are staying clear through to the time of the wedding to help me with Jordan and be there with me for wedding appointments and etc. We are very excited to have them, and blessed that they are in a position to be able to come and visit for extended lengths of time like they do!
Speaking of wedding planning, everything is really starting to come together wonderfully! I am working hard to keep us on budget, and ready for another wedding dress fitting! I wanted to let everyone know that though gifts are COMPLETELY unnecessary, I did set-up a bridal registry at Wal-Mart. I have had a lot of people asking for a registry, and I will send out an email about it as well :) I can't believe how close we are to having all of our friends and family here!! We absolutely can't wait! Our wedding is only 60 days away, and we are SOOOO ready!
Jordan is growing like a dandelion! She's now saying pretty much everything. It's incredible. There isn't a thing I can throw at her that she can't repeat right back to me. Her favorite is "hippopotomus". I said it to her thinking that she wouldn't be able to repeat it. Wrong. It came right out. She's putting together sentences, and songs! She's almost singing her ABC's and she does a great version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star :) She has been telling me that she has to go "pee pee potty" or "poopy potty" for quite some time now. I decided that though it's fairly early, I would go ahead and start potty training. I bought her a fantastic talking potty, and told her we were going to Potty like rockstars :) At this time, she loves to be in the bathroom with mommy, and will hug and kiss her potty, but is scared to death to sit on it! LOL We are working through it, and she's getting closer everyday, so that's good! Her favorite thing to do right now is read. We read about 50 books a day, if not more. We go over and over and over all of her favorites, plus our bible story every night. She LOVES to pray, which is the sweetest thing I could ever hope to see. We will pray before a meal, and sometimes she will stop me in the middle of the meal and demand that we pray again! I will pray with her as many times as she wants, and I hope her love for talking to the Lord stays with her!
We have had some great friends move to the base this week! One of Doc's first friends when he arrived here was a guy named Rob. We offered to let him store some stuff in our garage while he was deployed and he mentioned to me that he was married and that his wife would be moving out right before the guys came back. I gave him my phone number and email address and asked him to give it to her so that we could keep in touch throughout deployment, and I had an email from her just a couple days later! We have been talking for the last 6 months, and have become great friends! She just moved out here on the 31st, and we let her stay with us until she moved into her base housing. She has been SUCH a joy to have around! She's Italian, and her mother came with her from Rhode Island to help her settle! They have the cutest accents, are so fiesty, and so hilarious to be around! We've been helping them get settled and get everything done for their move. After moving here and seeing how hard it can be, I will absolutely jump on the chance to help someone else with their move, and in the process I am making some REALLY great friends! I am so thankful that God has led these people here to the island, and I am so blessed to have them be a part of our lives here! The best part of all (well, maybe not the BEST, but right up there!) is that to thank me they cooked me a homeade made-from-scratch Italian meal!!! OH MY GOSH!!! DELICIOUS!!! Thank God for those left-overs!!
Well, that's about all for us!! We will try to update you again before Doc comes home, but if we don't get a chance to, we'll update as quickly after homecoming as we can!!! Love you all :)
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